I would like to know if anyone shares the same opinion as me on this topic. Sometimes feeling less awkward and more confident with strangers than people you know.
I model part time, and spend my weekends travelling to meet new photographers and spend the day doing a Photoshoot. Even though I consider myself quite socially awkward, when it comes to being in front of the camera, I am not shy or uncomfortable at all.
But if a friend or a family member was to try and take a photo of me, I would immediately cover my face and feel really uncomfortable.
I’ve never quite figured out why this is.
The only suggestion I came up with, is that when I meet new people such as photographers etc.. I know that it is not likely I will see them again, so I make the most of the time I have and try to get the best out of the shoot. I don’t worry about feeling judged because I know they are looking at the way I am presented and not my personality.
But when someone I know goes to take a photo, I think ‘am I coming across too confident?’ And fear that they feel I am vain.
With people I don’t know, I don’t care what they think as much, because they don’t really know my personality and can’t sum me up in that one day.
I feel that the people close to you may hold grudges and every action you do will be remembered.
For example I once witnessed a friend who is usually quiet, flip out and get really angry, and now I do everything I can to make sure I don’t upset them, even though they are a lovely person.
Sometimes once you have seen a different side to someone you know, you associate that with their normal behaviour and it will always stick in your mind.
With strangers, you don’t know them well enough to judge them, so can be yourself.